didnt start the day well today
woke up to the scoldings of my mum, how nice to begin the day right? as if i really dont wana wake up, if i am not tired, of course, i will wake up. is that i really tired and wanted more sleep. why cant there be more grace and love in the family? like can just wake me up properly instead of shouting at me and giving me such a shock and dicomfort in the start of the day. every lil mistake we make will be reprimanded and magnified by mum. i tink that’s not something i can change, gonna accept it and still honour her. (very difficult thing to do) still gonna do it bah though how much my flesh doesnt wana do it, though how much my month wanted to scold back and talk back. i gonna stay calm, count to 5 and i hope everything will be alright. i HOPE~~~
rushed all de way out, really walked like i was running alr, just that my arms arent in the running motion. anyway, i saw the bus passed me by when i am only less than 50m from the waiting point. i waved frantically hoping that it will stop for me but it didn’t. argh! next thing i know when i got up a public bus to take to boonlay, my vitagen in the bag is spilled all over my bag. argh!
nvm. irritating and disturbed as i am. i dread going thru the rest of the day man. argh! why am i not entitled to recess week? bleahs. anyways, i told myself i shouldnt let this bad mood carry on. i took out my ipod, plugged into some CCC praise anf hillsongs Worship and that really calmed my soul and raging mood that nearly made me snap at the person who is walking like super slow in front of me. i told myself that i have the choice to decide how i wana spend my day, letting watever happened in the morning spoil the rest of such a day the Lord has created? or just live with a positive attitude to embrace whatever that comes my way? i decided the latter will definitely be a better choice. it can be so tired to be angry the whole day sometimes, the things that are going through in an angry mind isn’t anything positive or anything that will help. i need to build up my emotional capacity to be someone big on the inside. “rejoice with trembling”!
i know i need to but i think i will still fail sometimes. being angry and disappointed. making me myself unhappy and the people ard me who cared about me unhappy. i will continue to buck up, i know i need to.
u also need to.
let’s do it together.
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sidetrack: argh! read the newspaper today and got to know that the honeydew and banana milk from dutch lady which i love drinking are contaminated with melamine!
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