Arise and Build

learnt so much about confession in church last week. learnt that the power of confession can effect the person who confess and the ones ard him/her. yeaps

it all started with Masaru Emoto’s research on water; on how water holds memory for how it is treated.

basically, water have memories of the way u treat it, for example, the words u speak to it, the music u expose water to and even pictures u surround water with. with these factors and influences, water of the same source formed different crystals when frozen and observed under a microscope.

crystals formed by water

under different music

Beethoven’s Pastorale

Tibet Sutra

Kawachi Folk Dance

Under different words spoken to the water

Heavy Metal Music	You Make Me Sick, I Will Kill You	Adolph Hitler
Thank You	Love and Appreciation	Mother Teresa

Before and after prayers

Fujiwara Dam, before offering a prayer

Fujiwara Dam, after offering a prayer

studies were also done using different languages of the world and results were the same.

[abstracted from: http://www.life-enthusiast.com/twilight/research_emoto.htm]

hope many of us know that blood made up majority of our human body, plasma made up majority of blood and plasma contains ard 80% of water. so basically, our human body is made up of high water content. yeaps. thus, our constant confessions, things that people speak to us, things we speak to others, things we are exposed to effects alot of our life and our well-being as a human being. negativity and negative comments that we choose to hold inside us will only create ugly and bad crystals within us. let’s start confessing positively and to think positively! i want beautiful and nice crystals to form in my body.

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yeaps, beside confessing, as a christian, i believe that prayer and fasting is very impt! confessing will only work with constant prayer and fasting, esp in this season of arise and build. prayer and fasting is the only way to be plugged into God’s vision and the supernatural realm, the thing that differentiate us from the rest. in the arise and build, there doesnt seem to be much emphasis placed into it except for Pst Kong’s sermon in church as compared to the previous arise and build i had been thru. despite of that, as a older sister in the cg, i urge every single one in W357/W467 to really spend at least this week (u have until sunday! =)) to really pray about the amount u would wana gif this time round. i know many might be affected by the financial crisis but i would say it’s only thru time like these that our true faithfulness towards God and our trust towards God will be tested. all i wana say is that God nvr shortchange and don’t deprive urself of the chance to give and the opportunity of get that hundredfold blessings. but really pray about it. and i would advise to give out of something u have but not wat u dont haf. for example, dont pledge an amount, think that u will get that $8/hr paying holiday job and get that extra tuition assignment when u havent even gotten that job or assignment. plan ur pledge out of something u alr have. that’s how i am thought to calculate the amount i have to pledge on the previous arise and build. anyways, planning u must do, saving the dollar u gonna start, dont forget to pray and fast.

yeaps. i hope we, as a cg, can fast together. at least a 12hr fast on wednesday for this arise and build. Jiayou!

no more buffet

just came back from a treat from my sister.
for her getting her SPF scholarship, quite a achievement and blessing from God i must say.
all expenses paid for in Uni, tuition fees, IT stuff sponsored half and allowance given to her per mth.
happy occasion to celebrate.

the treat was sakura buffet.
the spread of food was ok, quality is only so-so.
i tink i am old
and my gastric isnt as healthy as before.
i am no longer good for buffets. it just makes me feeling sick and yucky everytime.
i am more into the quality and taste of the food instead of the quantity nowadays.
really.
i am feeling terrible now.
argh.

at least no more buffet for me for the next 6mths. i promise.
the feeling is just horrible.
if it persist, i guess it’s really time for me to see the doc tml le.
i don think i should drag this.
but there’s just so much to worry about.
work and all.

there are just so much i cant seem to just leave behind, just seem so irresponsible to do so.

but Mr BF kept tell not to blame everything on myself and hold myself responsible for everything.
it’s difficult to not do so
but being so ‘overly-responsible’ makes me depressed

i am okay

as many had noticed,

i am feeling quite depressed for the past week.

many asked so i guess the depression within me is showing out on the outside.

and i look visibly down and stressed.

all i wana say is that yes, i am not doing very well but i am still moving on.

i know i need to move on, i have to be strong.

i should stop running away from all the problems by sleeping my hours away.

being this way, it will just hurt the people that are concerned about me and love me.

i don wana see my loved ones get hurted anymore.

i gona stand up, i dono how but i know i have to do it.

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all i can say is that i am sorry.

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travelling

one thing i realised that makes me feel very sian and exhuasted everyday.

it’s travelling, esp in Singapore

i find that many times, i find it a total waste of time esp when i am not a very free person.

travelling just really agitate my mood most of the time.

i wish i can teleport. so more things can be done, save more time for myself, for rest, for catching up with friends, for manicures, for shopping, for doing masque, for time at home playing with my sister and helping with growing up, for time for Mr BF.

TAXIS

irritating vehicles on the road.
when u just wana cross the road just outside your estate, they will always think u wana hail a cab. they will do all kinds of irritating things to u. things i encountered: slowing down ALOT in front of u, honk you, shine their high beam light on you to get ur attention. damn irritating. and and and!!! they will only do this when u don wana hail a cab and just wanted to cross the road. BUT when u are really in a hurry and wanted to get a cab, they are nowhere to be seen! not a single cab for me to get up for 40mins when i wanted to cab down for sound.

MRT

I don’t have good experience on MRT too!it’s forever so crowded and sometimes i cant even get into the train! when i get into it, i really felt like sardine in a can, hardly able to move an inch.all i can do is to stand still and maintain stability on my foot to prevent myself from falling and leaning on any person beside me. and i really can stand pple hogging onto the handles and poles on the train! so inconsiderate and irritating, maybe they didnt realise by leaning or lying on the pole their flesh will “overflow” and make it usable for the rest.

and and and! if u got extra time on trains (i guess u have alot coz travelling simply waste time esp when u hafta stand, at least when u have a seat, u can read or slp), look ard the train, esp the west bound train. do u feel like u are in Singapore when u see all the Banglahs? bleahs. sweaty, and always touching each other, staring at u.

yeaps talking about banglahs! they always jam up the ATMs and Ez-link topping up machines all the time! coz they cant understand whatever language on the screen and tot by standing in front of the machine, staring at it will make their ezlink topuped! they simply jam up the machines, making queuing time and queue at JE and Boonlay so long! so even when u see the queue wo them is longer, just join that longer queue as it will definitely save u some time before they finally figure out. Maybe SMRT shld provide the option of their national languages at stns like JE and boonlay to help them!

BUS

bus! they nvr come on time! somehow whenever u wana take that service no,u will hafta wait so long for the bus to come! but when u are taking another service no, the service no u previously wanted to take will come like every 5 mins, come 4 times before the bus u wana take this time round comes. i tried going out of the house earlies but manytimes, i still reach places at the same time if i leave home later.

in my sec sch days, i will hafta wait so long for my bus to sch but the worst thing is that the bus is so crowded by the time it reaches my stop. i cant even get up the bus! sometimes, the bus driver don even bother to open the front door for us to board. i had experience of letting 3 full buses pass me, having to board the 4th bus that come, making me late for sch. so irritating! talking about increasing fares all the time, why not increase the quality of the public transport in singapore. and and and some buses’ engines are so noisy! i tink can be ard 80dB lorh(ard the worship level in church).

other happenings inside the bus also irritate me. some mentally ill person keeping waving punches all around, threatening my life. some will ask u to give up ur precious seat just by pointing at u and asking u to stand up. no choice, no matter how tired i am. crying babies! noisy and running kids! kiasu aunties! smelly and sweaty sch boys!

yeaps, one thing i always cant stand is that in a crowded bus, there will always be an auntie not convinced that the back of the bus is alr pack and try to squeeze their way into the bus. but when they reach a certain point of the bus and realised it’s truely packed at the back then they stopped there! that’s when the problem comes. she will just stop there, not ‘returning’ the standing positon to the nice person who let her pass through just now. sort of replacing that nice person and leaving him/her threatening of the stable position he/she had on the bus. now thw poor person might be left with no handles or poles to hold to secure himself, and leave sandwiched between the auntie and some other passager.

arghargh… such a long post.
rant rant rant.
sorry, i might sound irritating and fussy and all critical.