Exams + Post Exams

exams this time round was ok, at least i only had one module.
i can be really focused on that and give all out for it.
i did pretty ok, managed to pull up my cap more than i expected. those were tough times in the family though but i held on to the promises of God and trusted in His strength.

right after the paper, i went to holland v’s mexician restaurant then to Häagen-Dazs to celebrate and chill

then after exams, which also marks the end of my internship in Philips the next day…

then were a serials of post-exam, post-intern “celebrations” by ourselves at

bugis and westcoast plaza
fish&co, b&j (yeahness, both my fav)

then a saturday at sentosa and changi airport
my long awaited bakerzin and the battle with tigerair

it was a time of ups and downs for us though.
things won’t smooth even though exams were over and when we thought everything will be much more relaxing and we will have the time of the world to go pah tuo
lotsa expectations of a good holiday or rest ahead were broken, fell to nought….

i didnt even haf time to enjoy slacking times before thanksgiving and Christmas comes our way…

here’s some photos of the thanksgiving event our cg organised, i don have majority of them as they are no taken by jh’s cam. and also some photos of the games cum decor comm when we meet up.

the gingerbreadman is baked by cx, so sweet. felt so blessed by her act and see her grow.

stress to the max

yeah, the title of this entry explains all.

exams are just less than 2 weeks away and things arent progressing well. my plan of studying was on track until bad things just happen again and again past week and continue to happen today.

stress as i can be. as disgusting medicinal chemistry may be. there are just too many competitive pple in my course, causing me hard to catch my breath and doesnt give me the assurance in my heart that i can do it even after everytime, i finish going thru the topic understanding it. i will just haf the after-feeling that, other pple might haf gone thru it thrice, fourth, fifth or even the sixth time. i can nvr match up with how much time and discipline they had to sit down and stare thru the notes or the computer screen. if studying is just for the enriching of knowledge, it will be tremendously great, i will be much enjoying the topic than to find it disgusting now.

bad things don happen alone. i am only granted two pathetic days off from my stupid internship!!!!! when many others got one whole week off, some even haf 2 whole weeks! u get wat i mean now? how can i ever catch up with that!?!?!?! felt like screaming at my supervisor ytd, and also the technician who also wanted to take leave on that week because of her NUS parttime degrees exams! u tell me….. who should be given an advantage to take leave for exams? a student, intern in the company, who applied leave 1mth beforehand or a FULLTIME technician who gets more than double the pay the intern gets? and and and she only applied 2 weeks before!!!???? what on earth is that??? UNFAIR!!!!

anyways, as if i have a choice. maybe i do! to study hard now to get a C+ or study harder now to get a B. watever~~

my head felt so heavy now. cant really get to sleep though. my head feel like it’s full of things and it’s going to explore anytime.

bad things don happen alone. some stupid things happen at home. it just throw on tons of heavy burden onto my shoulder, adding to the ones that i alr had. lotsa expectations to be met, responsibilities added.

i dono how i can handle this.

tribulation before my water baptism?
But devil! i am going to confess u should not have any foothold in my life! Go to Hell!

anyways, God said He will multiply my time! i don’t know how or when, but i BELIEVE!!! i do my best, He will do the rest. i need strength and more of Your mercy!!!

okies. all above are just me being angry and ranting. an outlet for me to express. i believe what one of my friend say is very right. “it’s ok to be angry but just don let it get over u.”

engineers

i think engineers in my company are pretty lame.

this is one of the many silly, lame and funny things they wrote on the Whiteboard corner outside the toilet. it is a whiteboard where there are questions ask, polls done and many interesting findings or patent found. sort of a honglim park, speakers’ corner.

my internship

hmmz, it’s raining super dip duper heavy this morning. somemore, it’s MONDAY!!! bleahs~~~ just don’t feel like going to work, so much an hassle to fight and dash through the heavy rain that flooded the whole corridor outside my apartment. in addition, rainy days are just good for sleeping and lai chuang! for rainy days, it’s best to stay indoors, lie down on my sofa or bed, listen to radio, switching on the tv or just staring into blank spaces. BUT i have to work! now, here i am, back in the office, going through another 9hrs of my internship!

btw, i had alr completed more than half of my internship. pretty encouraged by it. haha. 2.5mths to go. ard 10 more weeks. still seem loOoooOng rite? yeaps. and the engineers scheduled a packed and hectic load of activities near the end of my internship as it’s near the end of the current project i am working on right now. yeaps, no slacking life even till the end of internship!

haha. but so far, the people here are quite nice and supervisors treated me quite well, quite well not as in not giving any work but slacking everyday but it’s like they will be concern about me and sometimes when i compare myself to my coursemate who’s under another project and supervisor, i felt so blessed and relieved i didnt pick his project in the beginning.

btw, i have this self-made candy box/container made using paper on my desk. then at the very bottom of the container were words “no more sweets ” so it’s like when there’s really no more sweets, i will get to see the words and when it’s filled, i don get to see it. that day, while leaving a note for me on my table, i tink my supervisor saw the silly candy box. then the next day which is like last fri, she placed a box of gummies and choco in the box! haha, leaving a note “now you have sweets! courtesy from Shangri-la.” haha. i felt so paiseh of my silly act and candy box. hees, jh asked me to try putting a money box on my desk which writes “no more money” at the bottom. he’s just full of ideas…. that’s my Kungfu Panda with a paper hat on my desk.

 

 

yeaps, then the whole department celebrated Mid-Autumn festival on last fri. we had a lunch buffet and games at a function room. broke up into groups and played games like lantern-making and balloon tower. we were given funny items like pomelo, hongbao, magazines, etc for the lantern-making and i am amazed by the ideas that some of the engineers can come out with. like a chinese junkboat, a Beijing’s Birdnest stadium inspired one and a cracked boiler one. boiler is something they place in a system iron. yeaps. balloon tower is just building the tallest tower using balloon which can stand on its own. one rule is that we can only tied the balloon with strings but the strings we gonna unthread out of a piece of cloth given to us. then at the end, we are asked to burst all the balloons on the spot which made lotsa firecrackers-like noise. here are some blur pictures.

 

 

 

busy tired huiyu but blessed

ever since i started to learn to count my blessings (though i still rant sometimes, i am still learning), i tink i m a much happier person. many times, it just a small still voice inside of me reminding me to see how blessed i am instead of looking at the negative side and not to retort at people who are so critical and harsh towards me. keeping me calm and giving me the peace. i am very sure it’s the Holy Spirit.

Cgm and svc this week was great. i nvr felt God’s presence so strong in my life, comforting me and carrying me thru my worries for a very long time. i was very touched by this tangible presence that i cant control my tears. His Love is so great, so strong and overwhelming. I am so thankful and must always rmb to acknowledge him in every situation that comes along.

yeaps, work was great. greater responsibilities given to me but i enjoyed myself. now, my whole department went for a workshop so i have nothing to do…. so was thinking that i should post on this almost dead blog. haha. here are some of the photos of my office. next time i will take more photos, showcasing our process lab and pathetic but well-equipped chemistry lab. these two labs are where i usually work in.