Yeaps, it’s august again!

time passes so fast! I am a yr4 NUS undergrad alr.

i kinda like august becoz it’s national day and for some reasons plus this time round, i will be graduating from sot. kinda excited to haf really going to complete the course. when everything about sot is so uncertainty initially and sometimes along the way, but God really provided a way to all things and He never fails, never fails to let me know how much He love me every single time. it was rather tough for me though, financially and in the initial and final stage of sot when i have uni.

talking abt uni, i went back to school for class today after 3 mths.

it’s a fyp briefing and talks. had some funny fruit feast when they served durians, rambutans, longans and mangosteens. uncommon fruits…

kinda excited but anxious abt this fyp.

i am thinking of re-blogging on the process of me doing my fyp, to keep a record and memory for myself in this period of time. but definitely i wont be revealing confidential stuff here.

shall see how…

huiyu,
stop being envious!
coz he loves you than they do and that’s good enough.

today marks the end of my 6th semester in NUS.
my Sem2 in Year3

Year3 Sem1 was my internship in Philips.
it was a great time! relaxing, stress-free kinda life. holiday-ing time..
let me forget about the reality that being in my course is v v competitive…

i was just awaken from my relaxing mood to reality during the reading week this time round, which is kinda too late.
awaken by the amount of work i have to put in to study for exams.
once again awaken to the anxiety of exams and the competitiveness.
it’s like, it’s not enough to be good. u hafta be better than the rest.
haiz…

talking about that, this might or might not be the last sem i have in NUS.
i might haf just taken my last exam.
i might be frantically finding a job and be part of the rat race in 4mths time, after my sot.
so much uncertainty….
i don like uncertainties….

nah, i keep telling myself to trust God…
but somehow, i am afraid that i am just not good enough to stay on for honours…

we will know when 29may comes.
pray for me.

things don’t work out anymore…….

two thoughts…

from reading about pple’s lives on blogs and things that happen around me, i tink LDR are very hard to work out.
in fact, it’s even harder when the couple didnt started out as a LDR.
whereby at some period of time during their relationship, any party have to go overseas for study or work….
alot of times (not all) one of them will go outta track.
i guess constant meeting of each others’ needs is very impt and being so far apart, having the barrier of distance, time difference, it’s just hard (i nvr say impossible) to sustain.

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anyways, i am so grateful and glad that i am with who i am with now.
i am glad we didnt start out.
i am not judging or commenting on anyone’s character but i truly felt we are incompatible in alot of ways.
i am grateful and thankful that both of us are each having our significant other now.
i guess God had everything planned out.
guess we shouldnt worry about if this significant other we are having now is really that one and only or final one for us, coz God has His Sovereign plans and thoughts that are higher than ours….
May God bless all couples!

i shldnt have even tell u
shldnt have even shown u that evil true self within me

i am naive to tink that u will comfort me
but i was wrong
u confronted me
i feel so vulnerable
i shld have hid myself like i always used to be

hiding, acting as if i am alright

does happily ever after exist?

hmm?

relationship is like a huge beautiful ship.

passerby and those not on it long to get on board once there’s a chance.

however,
those who are on this vessel knows it and knows it very well,
it can be so tedious and takes so much effort
to maintain it, to keep it sailing, to keep it shining

but, afterall, the special one is always worth the effort.
but only the special one….

be certain that she/he’s the special one before u get onto such a ship…
dont jump into just any opportunities to get on board that ship

feel like giving up this blog once and for all.

feel so vulnerable when i exposed so much of my life to the vast internet vital community.

lots of things happened, making me feel so withdrawn from whatever i used to do and love to do.

things changed, in fact, many things changed.

people changed, some making me feel so distant.

i am no longer ready to share my life in the world of blogging.

so i guess that would mean no more news on my personal life, no more pics of MrBF.

might still pop onto wordpress to type down some little thoughts from my little brain which i only use about 3%.

tata.

dont worry too much,

MrBF and I are still together, as loving.

age doesn’t represent anything
whether u are working or studying also doesn’t represent anything
all these really doesn’t say if u are mature enough or not

some people refused to grow up
living such a carefree life right now — enjoying?
carefree even to what is tomorrow
doing whatever things they wish to

some grow up too fast and early
living lives of worries and concerns — tired
concerns about tomorrows
doing things which seem to be right

which do u prefer?

i guess all of us are at a age when everyone have their set of thinking and principles.
we tried to change and influence pple’s way of thinking and i guess that is all we can do
whether to change or not, depends on the person.
i guess everyone of us is old enough to make and to want to make our own decisions
whether or not they are the right decisions, we or pple will learn from it and pay for the decisions they make
all i can say is that, ten years down the road, i will know the answer to the question above.